Today, like many days, I am on a roller coaster with my brain waves going on a wild ride. There is talk about opening up business Yay! But wait! That could mean a spike in coronavirus cases. Noooo! What to think, what to do.
Some days I enjoy the intimacy of being at home, hanging out, going for long walks, cleaning, writing, and baking (why is it that so many of us are making banana bread). And some days I feel guilty for napping and not working as much as I would like to. I am in direct sales and I am learning to navigate the world of sales via social media so it has provided a new learning curve. I have also thought of going to work in a grocery store just to be with other people but I am in that age group that is considered higher risk so I am hesitant to work in one of the essential business.
My heart aches for the doctors and nurses who work long and grueling hours, and have taken on additional roles as they become the surrogate family for those who are isolated in hospitals.
My brain has a split personality. I am listening to our governor talk about businesses have to open. I get that. Our economoy is at the edge of a devestating cliff and the astronomical numbers of Covid 19 relief payments is almost beyond comprehension and a burden for future generations. But how can you even measure the economy against the lives that have been lost or could be lost because of the aggressive way this virus has permeated our society.
But the other half of my brain is embracing the idea that we need to have a plan.
To the naysayers who say it is too soon, and are able to continue social distancing, please do so. We can continue to flatten the curve by being cautious and abide by the recommendations made by our health, medical and public officials. For those who are aching to get back to work because they are struggling or have been unable to pay their monthly bills, the talks and plans being discussed to restart the economy can begin to ease fears and angst and allow some businesses to open their doors. Let us give our leaders a chance to make careful and calculated plans for our futures.
If you see me while I am in the grocery store with rumpled hair and my homemade mask, acting a bit distracted, give me the benefit of the doubt. I am not rude or cranky, I am just trying to keep this roller coaster brain from veering off its tracks!
Shine Bright Where You Are 